Emma Watson fangirling over Julia Roberts at the 86th Annual Academy Awards
i’ll reply to just this one, anon. please, never, ever think you or anyone following me is annoying because you chose to vent to me. no need to apologize for your English either because as far as i’m concerned, i understood everything you sent. i’m a psychology major, this is the stuff i like to read. nooo, i’m not a sadist, i promise. it sounds to me like you’re unhappy with college because you’re not doing something you want to do. you sound like such an amazing person, and it’s a bummer to hear that you’re in the same boat as me. seeing as i’ve been in this mental place in my life once before, i will assure you it does get better, but that was also with professional help that took me three years to get. i was also in my teens at the time, too. *hugs* never be sorry for how you feel and never, ever feel bad for venting to me. anon or not, you’re a person with feelings. (i just like messing with the ones that don’t seem serious and feel like ‘stupid’ questions to me)
aesthetically pleasing movies: the lion king
remember who you are.
i need a place to rant that doesn’t have a character limit. unfollow me for a personal post, i don’t give two shits. i am just so sick of college, so sick of my distractibility, anxiety, being upset within seconds, etc. i know i should call the health center here again and talk to the therapist, but that stresses me out even more. the first guy he referred me to doesn’t accept my insurance and i really don’t know how to find someone that does. i have no motivation or any sense of caring about my classes/grades. i do not want to be here, i’d rather be at home. the whole “it’ll be worth it in the end” bullshit needs to stop being said to me. not all college graduates get a job immediately after graduation and some don’t even get one that pertains to their degree. i just don’t know what to do anymore because i don’t want to be in school. i’m thinking i need a break, but everyone’s like “it’ll be a mistake. you won’t go back.” for fucks sake, i’m 22 years old. it’s not like i don’t want to come back, but i don’t want to waste money when i could care less about anything. i hate that society makes us think we need our lives figured out and on the right track at such a young age. it makes my mom push me to stay in school and it’s annoying. i struggled throughout high school and she knew/witnessed it. she’s never been a college student, she doesn’t know what it’s like. she should be able to tell that it makes me miserable and that i’m happiest when i’m not in school, so why can’t she accept the fact that i want to take a year or even a semester off? maybe with that time off, i can use it to get better mental health and be put back on meds, even though i hated how they made me feel at first. but it’s been dreadful over the past six months, so i dunno… i have so much more i could say, but i’ll stop. if you read all of this, you deserve a hug.
"See what happens when I leave you alone."
I need you to know that our partnership, our relationship is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. You’re an amazing man, and I love you with all of my heart. Always.